~ God's 3 M's ~

These past few days have been so weird for me. It's like I was so out-of-sorts. Why? I wasn't doing anything I shouldn't be. Mental Checklist:

1. Repenting of a sin when God brings it to light. Check.
2. Meeting daily with Him and seeking to know Him. Check.
3. Praying. Check.
4. Telling Him what's bothering me. Check.

Well what the heck? Why do I feel so out of control, insecure, worried, and fearful. It's not even about me! To be honest, my fears rest in the salvation of those I know and love. For the past few weeks I've been praying and speaking with God about you guys (Casey and Marissah), Josalyn, and Josiah coming to know Christ and love Him with all your heart. And then the relationship that Danae, Mom and one of my close friends have with Him.

It is consuming so much of my thoughts, time, and energy. But that's ok right? God wants me to be concern for y'all. He wants me to "snatch" you guys "from the fire." I'm being a good girl by caring and then going to Him and pouring my heart out to Him about how it upsets me and praying He'll interveine and open the eyes of your hearts.

So what's the problem. Sitting with God today telling Him for the third day in a row that I feel out-of-sorts with Him, I decided to play Kutless. There song, All Who Are Thirsty, was on the Fish on the ride home and I love the line "deep cries out to deep" because it was one of the 1st spiritual conversations I had with Nathan before we were dating <3.

Basically Nate when home and researched it and found out that David was talking about the deepest part of him, knowing and talking with the deepest part of God. WOW. That's cool to me. So I asked God for that to happen with us.

You know what He showed me?

He showed me that I've been TELLING Him about my problems and concerns, but I haven't GIVEN them to Him. I haven't placed them in His willing, good, perfect hands. I haven't trusted Him to work and settle each one of these situations to His glory and our good. He IS working. He IS on my side. I'm not in this alone. I don't have to fix everything or talk God into joining my cause. He wants this MORE than I do.

& He wants for me to give this over to Him because He cares. About. Me.

So all that just to say I want you to know and do the same thing. God cares about you. Tell Him your problems and cares - no matter how small or dumb they are. How evil or selfish. Tell Him. Then give them over and trust Him with them. Tell Him if that scares you. Tell Him you're unsure and need His help. He'll always come through.

I. FEEL. SO. MUCH. BETTER. All the sudden it was like I could breathe again! Now I'm listening to a bunch of songs about breathing on Spotify. But seriously, He revives me. He gives life to my soul. He wakes me up and the suffocating stops. He takes my cares, makes them His own, and makes me feel better.

What a friendship!

The 1st M.

Songs:
Breathe into Me - Red
Breathe You In - Thousand Foot Krutch

Casey I think you'd really like them : )